Tuesday, 13 September 2011

Scary stuff…

I’ve noticed that as years passed, my tolerance and nerves evolved and changed. Nowadays, while I’m living my third decade on this world, I have to admit that I am not as fearless as I used to be. I’ve never been a carefree, reckless person. I always had my wits, being somewhat mature for my age. However, I was still fairly bold.

I’ll give you some examples. I’ve been travelling almost all my life. I boarded a plane for my first time when I was 8 and I’ve been flying ever since. I can still remember my first visit to the airport and how in awe I was of the big plane. I remember sitting by the window with my mother next to me and my first ever take off. I was extremely excited of this new experience. When the plane had to change course, I was on the side facing down. I completely loved it. I felt like superman, even feeling a bit light headed, facing the ground and the cars that looked so small.

Lately, I’ve noticed that I suffer from pre-trip jitters. I get a slight knot on my stomach just before take-off. It lasts only for some seconds and I try to ignore it by either looking out of the window, by reading a book or checking out other passengers. I think it’s completely ridiculous and embarrassing. I love travelling. I always had and I always will. It can’t be getting stressed, even slightly, for flying.

My second example is scary movies. I used to like watching them, although I never was a major fan. I’ve seen most old Carpenter or Clive Barker’s movies. ‘The shining’ and Hannibal series are one of my all-time classics. I’ve even enjoyed stuff like ‘Candyman’ or ‘Night of the living dead’. I have to admit that I had flinched while I was watching them, but it was never as bad as it is now.

I don’t know if contemporary horror movies evolved and changed to be more realistic and scarier. However, I have great difficulty in watching them. Yes, I have evolved into a wimp. Even watching some of their movie trailers is stressing. Especially if there are children evolved. Why do they put children in horror movies? To scare people you would say, but I just find it cruel!

Unfortunately, my better half loves them. He admits that sometimes he gets distressed but not that much and he loves the excitement. He even wants to go and see them in the cinema. That’s a definite no-no for me. There is nowhere to hide in a cinema theatre! There are not even pillows. In DVD I can watch almost everything from ‘Friday the 13th’ to ‘The Ring’ to ‘Saw’, although these movies wouldn’t be my first choice. But I could never go and watch ‘Paranormal Activity’ in the cinema. How about ‘Harry Potter’, I would suggest?

This scariness evolution must be normal, right? Children are considered generally fearless. They don’t recognise that climbing up there is simply dangerous! Gravity can be a real bitch. You get a better understanding of the real world growing up (although that is not very good in my opinion). I just hope I don’t turn into a manic phobic, being afraid of my own shadow.

I don’t think I’d easily sky dive, but I can be brave, right?


  1. This is a rather timely post. I watched a very creepy movie on Sunday night and it is still disturbing me. It was part of Film 4's Fright Season last month. I recorded it but didn't watch until then.

    The Disappeared with Harry Treadaway, a 2008 movie. Very creepy. Still making me flinch and keeping me from looking too far into the dark. A long time since I felt so spooked.

    Having deleted it after I watched it I've now just ordered it on Amazon costs about £5. Well worth looking at it....


  2. I don't do scary movies. Especially scary movies that could happen. I tend to have an overactive imagination, and those always come back to visit me when I'm dreaming. Which is bad. As I tend to have very vivid nightmares.

  3. I have grown more fearful (or less fearless) as I aged as well.
    As for horror movies - I prefer the ones that give you the creeps rather than the 'slasher in your face' horror. The imagination is still far more spooky than actuality.

  4. "This scariness evolution must be normal, right?" Yes, that's right. You're not a 'dumb kid' anymore, doing crazy things that put your welfare in danger. I'm the same way. I rode roller coasters fearlessly 20 years ago, but now I get that queesy feeling in my stomach before I even get on board.

  5. Heh. Interesting. I've never liked scary movies, but I do enjoy the occasional (sane) thrill like flying an airplane. My BF, though, apparently likes jumping out of them. As he was describing the experience of standing, leaping, and falling, literally, through a cloud, I could feel myself become nervous. :-) I'd never quite experienced that before. ;-)

  6. You know I feel exactly the same way - I've noticed I'm getting more frightened as I get older. Flying is a complete no-no for me these days. I think it is a normal part of getting... wiser and more mature. An adult flyer thinks of things no child would worry about. But I think we watch the scary movies precisely to scare ourselves, no? I admit I enjoy them more and more! :-) Mike.

  7. @Made_In_Scotland I haven't seen this one. I don't think I'll easily watch it. Maybe JJ's seen it.

    @Erik_Rubright So do I. I have nightmares sometimes too. That is why I don't do scary movies...

    @Ur-Spo So, it's not just me then

  8. @Cubby I haven't been to a roller coaster recently. I'll give it a go and let you know.

    @Gauss Jordan Flying a plane might be something I would try. Jumping from one is a definitely no-no...

    @Mike Yes, scary movie are supposed to scare you. That is exactly why I don't watch them. :-)